Just a heads up and apology...today's post looks all disorganized and disjointed. Weird font colours, big spaces etc.... my computer has a mind of it's own.!
I also think of the words 'Jesus is the light of the world' as the birth of Jesus gave the world hope.
This is Cameron for me.
His very existence, every little kick he gave, every hiccup,
every movement on ultrasound.... each of these was
all I needed sometimes to have hope for the life we had been given.
I think this was something that is very hard for loss moms to get past... to live without regrets. It is so hard not to question the choices you made.... I should have researched more so I would have known that I needed to be seen more often, have more ultrasounds, have a level 3 ultrasound that would have detected Cole's cord insertion issue. I have regrets...many... on how I dealt with the day I delivered him. But I can't look back with regret...it keeps me stuck in the past and it's ahead that is the future. I can only look ahead with hope and work at living a life that is full of hope, of joy and of peace.
I love this line... Hope secretly feeds and strengthens promise.
So much truth in that. God promised us a future, he promised us he had a plan to not harm us but to give us a hope and a future. Our hope, our belief that it will get better...that is what feeds and strengthens God's promise